Trauma Took Everything -But Not Him - If I Died ,Do Not Pretend You Care

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I’ve seen countless shorts, videos, and comments about suicide.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbr7ujZEuz
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People say: “Think about your mom, dad, grandparents, your dog or any pet, your friends, anyone you know. They love you. So don’t do it.”

But let me respond — from the perspective of someone standing on the edge:

Dad — why don’t you talk to me?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjslO6TGTP
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Why can’t I remember a single time you played with me?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIi3hPGte2h
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Why do you mock me, laugh at me, make others bully me?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXU63UOXSy
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Why are you never proud of me?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZSAOhZ1LM
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I know you work hard, but is it really impossible to spare just five minutes a day?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxkr1IXzQB
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Or even just two minutes in a month to ask how your child is?

Mom — why do you fight with me over everything?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpu2UM5sew
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Why do you taunt me, make me feel like I’m always wrong?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRFnt8PvPG
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Why did you steal my childhood and force me into the role of a second mother?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWWUh2HCcz
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Why didn’t you let me play, paint, dance, or sing like other kids?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡms2ALHJjHg
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Why do you compare me with my siblings until they hate me too?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyLzPFt9DFA
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I can’t remember the last time you treated me like your daughter — not your burden.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QpBKcEtFr
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A smile, a hug, a pat on the head — is that too much to ask?

Brother — I raised you. I took care of you.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOTUV8IyGk
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You saw me breaking, yet you sped up the process.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmg7BmeXNm
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Do you remember how you blamed me for everything, how you made Mom hate me?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBkENndgHR
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Do you know how deeply that broke me?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CUsitX36m
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I tried to protect you — so why did you give me reasons to die?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRltpydS8mO
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Was your hatred really that deep?

Sister, little kid — even you joined in.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lFQRtAdep
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You’ve changed a bit now, but I still remember.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXADTksgxA
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I took you to school, protected you, gave you my chocolates and my love.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDx4KABsIF
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So why did you help tear me apart?

Grandpa — you were my friend once. Then I found out your truth.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3R8pJeQbv
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Why do you drink, scream, abuse, and destroy everything?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPubiMnTuc1
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Why did you have to be another man who hurt me?

Grandma — why did you humiliate me in front of the whole family because of my skin, because I’m a girl?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCkRx3IOJv
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Why do you play your games behind everyone’s back?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGRgg8xFZs
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Why did you become a puppeteer of cruelty?

My two friend-dogs — why did you die so early?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqUaP4XkDR
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I couldn’t even say goodbye.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9cTKo1Dqc
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I tried to save you.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJClDePH4t
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I told everyone what really happened.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LHKud7D30
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They didn’t hit you that day… so did they kill you later?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDgouqVf88
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Was it painful?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYG3FHDHO7
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I should never have left you.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4Rt1CEH8G
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They told me about your death 15 days later.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzvL5gaBuF
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I asked everyone — they stayed silent.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvMmzpczYn
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Was poison really that brutal?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvXLAvImGn
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I went back to that place. A snake bit me.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IwJOwjRUz
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I thought I’d see you again.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpcbhk7Wwf
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I’m sorry I wasn’t there.

Principal Sir — you saw my grades for 10 years, my achievements.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IcjSfi8Mv
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But not my pain?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8evgeeTzt
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Why didn’t you ask any questions?

Classmates — I don’t even care anymore.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcEFu3o0Rl
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But I remember how none of you talked to me, played with me — for two whole years.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSNczAG8Fr
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You chose silence. What could I do?

My 5th class classmate — you died.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfP8BplNbQc
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The only memory I have is scolding you.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVdzqkBnqW
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But I also remember your last smile.

Coaching Teacher — I asked you for help.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75AR9Jh0Kh
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You laughed. You mocked me in front of everyone.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDXVmyjAjH
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One month later, I attempted suicide.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOiWVOY5hL
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You still don’t know.

To everyone who saw my pain and looked away —64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZu4vqvrve
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Why?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVleKshx7I
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Why did you turn your backs when I begged for help?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bhFoYbf15
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Why did you make me feel like suicide was my only answer?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IT9znuQVz
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Why am I falling apart like this?64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ639pbIBiC4
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Why are there blood clots on my body, bruises on my spirit?

So don’t talk online about mental health if you won’t even listen to our side.

Don’t tell us to care about family and friends — some of us never got that kind of love.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcVjBWmezp
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At least tell us: “You matter — for yourself.”

And remember:

Not everyone is remembered forever.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq64E33M9bh
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People move on.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7tRxio0cZ
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Family is not the same for everyone.64Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3tkhf8IuH
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And love isn’t always where it’s supposed to be.

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