What is a letter/note you've always wanted to give to a loved one but never had the courage to? - “A Love That Was Never Mine to Keep”

There’s something I’ve carried for years.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0bwvHymev
Something I never had the courage to say — not even when I sat beside you every single day, not even when your voice was the only comfort I knew.

We were best friends.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCXdHXVrm8
You let me in, shared your secrets, laughed with me, cried with me, made memories that stretched across years.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mKUWpFsbD
And I held them all like tiny treasures.

But somewhere along the way…62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv980ffj2ok
I fell in love with you.

Not in a loud, dramatic way.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0pcvfsSAR
Not in a way that ever asked for anything back.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkLUEOVm6d
I just… loved you.

In the quietest, deepest corners of my soul.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5KsnWdghP
In the spaces between your words.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEfx2jVG8o
In the silence after your voice.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzysVxQLCfp
In the warmth of every “pagal” you called me.

I listened when you spoke about her — the girl you liked.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAfvYomGdF
I helped you find the words, plan the replies, understand your feelings.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1IzX11TEz
And with each sentence I gave to help you be closer to her…62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSwTtf0v00
I lost a little piece of myself.

Because I wasn’t just your friend.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvIxS3fePs
I was the one who stayed up late, not to talk — but to overthink every conversation we had.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekUXhDcTS7
I was the one who replayed your voice in my mind when everything felt heavy.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQBfZCVkxS
I was the one who watched you choose others — and still smiled, like it didn’t hurt.

But Zuni, it did.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaGnZnH4B7
It hurt more than you’ll ever know.

The world saw you as the strong one. The admired one.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8CRN6E49r
But I saw something softer — something only I got to know.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iKwXfyQGk
Your laughter that came after anger.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7q2xQkLfq
The way you forgot things but remembered how to make people feel loved.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkm5VLzfjYy
The way you chose me, again and again, when others wanted your time — and I thought, just maybe, that meant something.

I remember the night I sent you that video…62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsE94KC58D
That baby crying, and the words:62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLJanCErzc
“No one ever says they miss me…”

And you replied —62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysRkZLfrP4
“Pagal… you are always missed. Always remembered.”

Zuni…62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50t0f77i1l
You didn’t know, but I broke that night.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vawkRgXQX
Because that was the closest I ever came to hearing what I had waited years to hear.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLiMmSsTdZ
And it still wasn’t what I needed.

The truth is, you never knew what I carried inside.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5asaxWvssR
How every word I said was soaked in feelings I buried.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKUZ61hYLu
How every smile I gave hid the pain of being almost everything to you…62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnPJhVByGR
But never the one thing I wanted to be.

We still talk.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH84xvBBVNb
Every day.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLT5RRl3RDy
Like everything is fine.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEI87n6KTl0
Like there’s no storm behind the screen.

But every message I send is a love letter written in disguise.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscA1I56gkS
Every reply is me pretending that “friend” was ever enough.

And you’ll never know.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGdydPwItp
Because I will never tell you.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoQ7zOxNwF
Not because I’m afraid —62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSQhfO29MV
But because I love you too much to ruin the only place I exist in your life.

Maybe Allah never wrote your heart for me.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlPNS1IDXg
Maybe I was just meant to love you from the edge of your world… and pray for you from a distance.

So I do.

I pray that you are always happy.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfrQ5ZlgtN
That your heart is always full.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndI7L3Bim6
That the person you choose gives you every joy I once dreamed of giving you.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtl5WdngPvI
And I pray — selfishly, quietly — that if you ever wonder if someone truly loved you without asking for anything…62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRrGypG3D1
You’ll think of me.

Not as the friend who stayed.62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsPrNz12WT
But as the heart that broke —62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOLcTwbZQu
And still kept loving.

Always,62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevkEqiWjPb
your friend...................62Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7k7jwN8Vv
—The girl who never told you. But always meant it.

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