What is a letter/note you've always wanted to give to a loved one but never had the courage to? - “A Love That Was Never Mine to Keep”

There’s something I’ve carried for years.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsB9U28IXFm
Something I never had the courage to say — not even when I sat beside you every single day, not even when your voice was the only comfort I knew.

We were best friends.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5inbBUDMG
You let me in, shared your secrets, laughed with me, cried with me, made memories that stretched across years.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYHikwPzS8
And I held them all like tiny treasures.

But somewhere along the way…14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dCnouNc8R
I fell in love with you.

Not in a loud, dramatic way.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZB8YW6nZL
Not in a way that ever asked for anything back.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwQK5REAbp
I just… loved you.

In the quietest, deepest corners of my soul.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSOvuiSTPb
In the spaces between your words.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuqkD29EmY
In the silence after your voice.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25REoHITw8
In the warmth of every “pagal” you called me.

I listened when you spoke about her — the girl you liked.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBeDMPGDPmh
I helped you find the words, plan the replies, understand your feelings.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYxgnu3Bov
And with each sentence I gave to help you be closer to her…14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5kPWaT3AR
I lost a little piece of myself.

Because I wasn’t just your friend.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk995z9Y4Qa
I was the one who stayed up late, not to talk — but to overthink every conversation we had.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Ixkz6DARa
I was the one who replayed your voice in my mind when everything felt heavy.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpvBQGdVET
I was the one who watched you choose others — and still smiled, like it didn’t hurt.

But Zuni, it did.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFe3UrYEmMe
It hurt more than you’ll ever know.

The world saw you as the strong one. The admired one.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9g6mXxqoxz
But I saw something softer — something only I got to know.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83v5lBDem9
Your laughter that came after anger.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstiieuBJvx
The way you forgot things but remembered how to make people feel loved.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KzFmS0Awg
The way you chose me, again and again, when others wanted your time — and I thought, just maybe, that meant something.

I remember the night I sent you that video…14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkvkJd9bTK
That baby crying, and the words:14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4i0OqHp8Z
“No one ever says they miss me…”

And you replied —14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrraiRGLRG
“Pagal… you are always missed. Always remembered.”

Zuni…14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbF2bc0XMKy
You didn’t know, but I broke that night.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRFEOw0oDK
Because that was the closest I ever came to hearing what I had waited years to hear.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgtHFZtn87
And it still wasn’t what I needed.

The truth is, you never knew what I carried inside.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡueHvPQFu5g
How every word I said was soaked in feelings I buried.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpU1N7cvJh
How every smile I gave hid the pain of being almost everything to you…14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLn18AVeRK
But never the one thing I wanted to be.

We still talk.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmcqS9XnCQ
Every day.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ990qWnfu1X
Like everything is fine.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12kHjq1lFf
Like there’s no storm behind the screen.

But every message I send is a love letter written in disguise.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdFYppXGpm
Every reply is me pretending that “friend” was ever enough.

And you’ll never know.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1E8FAywT7
Because I will never tell you.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsEqFqijcW
Not because I’m afraid —14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALFH7Ai1gZ
But because I love you too much to ruin the only place I exist in your life.

Maybe Allah never wrote your heart for me.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6eC49PdnW
Maybe I was just meant to love you from the edge of your world… and pray for you from a distance.

So I do.

I pray that you are always happy.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXTNAPAlMN
That your heart is always full.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvc9NtJ7fGp
That the person you choose gives you every joy I once dreamed of giving you.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gisijAoIU
And I pray — selfishly, quietly — that if you ever wonder if someone truly loved you without asking for anything…14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTs7t3giZai
You’ll think of me.

Not as the friend who stayed.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKuLaKIAvX
But as the heart that broke —14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzVBZWKdOZ
And still kept loving.

Always,14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9el4WEUfF
your friend...................14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eHirjelyk
—The girl who never told you. But always meant it.

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