第一次走上大型舞台的時候，我其實很緊張。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6mrL2GjMo
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緊張到胃在三十分鐘前就開始絞痛。化妝間的燈亮得刺眼，我盯著鏡子裡的自己，突然覺得那張臉好陌生。明明每天都在練習，可是真的到了這一天，還是會害怕。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uX9fY8IbC
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我一直在等。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4XiUO5Csk
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等夢娜姊傳訊息來，等她說一句 :「別怕，我在。」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6UwAMu680
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她今天來不了。我知道她有重要的考試，那是她努力很久、一直想達成的事情。我真的希望她順利通過。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPayGVyAwh
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只是……這種時候，妳如果在就好了。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCeGhSLhRH
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門被推開的時候，我還以為是工作人員。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSml9xig1B0
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結果是鈴蘭姐姐，她幾乎是跑過來抱住我。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZSlw2TKEx
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「努力把自己有熱情的事情做好，就是最有意義的事！」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6LKXPOiYN
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她說得很篤定，眼睛裡都在發光。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrF35toggD
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我鼻子有點酸，但我不想哭。因為我希望她看到的，是站在舞台上發光的我，而不是躲在化妝間裡緊張到發抖的樣子。她大概看出我的不安，握緊我的手，輕聲說：「盡情享受舞台上的快樂吧。」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgA2zpqlv5
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那句話不像安慰，更像是在提醒我——我其實是喜歡站在那裡的。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3tGWxKf40
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她身後站著君嶋執事。那個總是笑得很禮貌，卻很難看出真正情緒的人。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNBNBCqs3B
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他對我點了點頭。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtBPzxQvLm
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「加油。」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOLhoNr0fm
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只有兩個字。卻不知道為什麼，讓我的心跳慢慢安定下來。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuGOoRXNek
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我爸爸和大伯，是家族裡感情最好的兄弟。大概只有我爸那種隨和到有點沒神經的性格，才受得了大伯那種規矩多到爆、嚴厲到連空氣都要站直的氛圍吧。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5zVToSBXx
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每年寒暑假，我們都會去大伯家。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWGm7FDboT
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鈴蘭姐姐是獨生女。她看到我們時，總是開心得有點誇張。誇張到我有時候會忍不住想，妳真的有那麼想我們嗎？可是每次她那樣對我笑，我又會覺得……心裡暖暖的。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNp86NY2DK
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我其實不太懂她。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKXCfH1CaU
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為什麼她總是能理解露蕾雅那些幼稚又無厘頭的想法。露蕾雅說想找奇怪形狀的石頭，她就陪著找。說想看草叢裡那隻長得很恐怖的藍舌蜥蜴，她也陪著翻草叢。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ECNxsWlXm
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有一次，露蕾雅說想試試看用一隻手指頭彈完整首曲子。鈴蘭姐姐竟然真的坐在鋼琴前，陪她研究了一整個下午。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RdHYaXmXx
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真的很不可思議，她到底哪來那麼多耐心？312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHAPr6DmA2
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換成是我，大概三分鐘就開始煩了。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQPgHygw6L
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而那個名叫君嶋航一的執事，永遠跟在她們後面。像遊戲裡自動跟隨的NPC，陪著主角慢慢完成任務。我有時候會想——完成這些奇怪的任務之後，真的會掉出什麼寶物嗎？312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5f13wpxkF
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還是，那樣的時間本身就是寶物？312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSSuwri31p
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……算了，我才不羨慕那種事。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZY5lmQNq3M
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我大概還是比較適合有目標性的事情。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEA64MTE0qI
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比如把一首歌唱到真的打動人心，把吉他練到能跟樂團完美配合。露蕾雅鋼琴彈得那麼好，如果她哪天真的想站上舞台，我其實很想跟她一起彈一場。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFKtGjNjTp
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站在燈光底下。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTe1tG3awK
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被人記住。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBv4vKE0vz
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被人需要。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSPRJCYvG7
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被人喊著自己名字的瞬間，讓人覺得自己真的活著。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUcUhhsgxj
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十二歲那年，我開始大量排演與錄音，寒暑假幾乎不再回大伯家。與其把時間浪費在那些小孩子的遊戲上，我更想把歌詞寫好，把吉他練好。
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夢娜總會誇我。說我努力，說我很棒，說我一定會很受歡迎。
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那樣的誇獎，像止痛藥一樣，讓人短暫忘記疲憊。
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我不像正常的同年紀朋友。不能每天上學，不能按時交功課，不能與大家一起期末考。
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但我是在做更有意義的事，不是嗎？
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前兩天的演唱會，台下的人喊著我的名字，大聲地唱起我的歌。那種聲音，會讓人心臟發燙，全身的血液都沸騰。
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回到學校後，同學圍著我，翻著刊登我消息的雜誌，吱吱喳喳地問東問西，興奮地聊著演唱會的細節。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbXpx0vRoY
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「菲比，妳寫的歌詞好鼓勵我。」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhyyxUQfT6
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「菲比，妳才國三，簡直是天才！」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tWHx21pQe
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那一刻，我是真的覺得自己很幸福。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFNmhgQY0Q
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直到我被老師叫進辦公室。她用很溫柔、很委婉、卻藏著無奈的語氣說：「菲比，我知道妳很忙。老師也支持妳的夢想，但是期末考至少要通過喔。我請坐妳隔壁的君嶋同學幫妳準備筆記。君嶋同學的成績很好，他一定可以幫助到妳的。」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZX1TC8ZDR
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「君嶋？」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6jMx4G7t5
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我愣住。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXMbVxmo1M
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今天才發現，原來君嶋今年跟我同班，還是隔壁桌。沒注意到也不奇怪。開學前兩週，我都在忙著寫新歌、排練、錄音，根本沒時間看清楚教室裡的人。
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那天下午，老師叫他幫我補前兩週的重點。他點頭，坐到我對面，距離抓得剛剛好，不會太近，也不會太遠。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljv3J8of3z
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君嶋航一，大伯家的執事。但在學校裡卻是學霸，期末考不是全校第一就是第二，體育也很強。照理說應該是現充等級的人物，可朋友都說他高冷到難以親近。這種人居然是鈴蘭姐姐的執事，她每天面對這種人，不會很累嗎？312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75CWpFU3fh
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他翻開筆記本，開始講什麼一元二次、因式分解、拋物線。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2G7evS0Lh
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拜託。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMsHA6UzyE
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這些東西以後真的可以在社會上用得到嗎？312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexVSh9olhO
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我一邊聽，一邊在腦海裡排著下週的舞步動線。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoUCITc2z4
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數字在紙上排隊站好，我腦袋卻已經飛到聚光燈底下。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMWr0YflYY
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然後我才發現——312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkw8qYwHvU
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欸。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURNL4Yy0au
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君嶋其實長得還不錯欸。鼻子很挺，睫毛也太長了吧？男生長那麼長是合理的嗎？312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1FHSP8nQq
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這張臉不去當偶像或模特兒也太浪費了。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Y2yqZ6caK
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結果我盯著他看太久。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJ3NouPlbu
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「二小姐，妳有在聽嗎？」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡup0yc9tF0s
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糟，被抓到了。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBaZV8A6KG
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「有啊有啊！剛剛不是在講那個……三角形？」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Mchlo7aUn
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他看了我一眼。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxgRe4Gq7k
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……欸？那是什麼表情？該不會是嫌棄吧？312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9YaKc4Z4v
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喂。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmlQ8OrZNY
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「是三角函數。」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JFTLN2f6v
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「差不多啦，不都是三角。」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1O6P3iuJ9
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我撐著下巴看他寫字。以前只覺得他是鈴蘭姐姐的NPC。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJIOA2GgQG
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現在才發現，他其實跟我一樣大，而且長相什麼的，不比我身邊那些偶像差。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpkMh7TOG8
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……嗯。是挺順眼的。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGmWJWx190
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只要我有去學校，君嶋幾乎都會在午休的時候幫我複習功課。一開始我其實覺得很煩。午休明明是可以練習唱歌的時間，卻要聽他講什麼畢氏定律——那我還不如去睡覺。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwd58WAOAc
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……算了。至少臉是好看的。聽不懂數學，看看臉也不虧。
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可是不知道從什麼時候開始，我開始期待那段時間。開始希望，他的視線能多停留在我身上一秒。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObt5bQI6lX
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明明只要我回到學校，幾乎每個男同學都會回頭偷偷看我。走在走廊上會放慢腳步，體育課會有人故意在我面前灌籃。至於鞋櫃裡的情書，更不用說了——幾乎每天都會收到一兩封。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbiq11MKEA
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可是君嶋跟其他男生都不一樣。他只會把筆記翻好，冷靜地說：「這題妳再算一次。」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDADQqcctu
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這不是很奇怪嗎？312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWip6q0XOGV
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我故意把頭髮綁得高一點，故意戴上新買的耳環，甚至還在他面前哼了兩句剛發行的新歌。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3y4pd9tKO
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他卻連頭都沒抬。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4Voo9YZRf
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「你有沒有在 YouTube 上聽過我的新歌？」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLtT0BTjTV
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我撐著下巴，裝作若無其事地問。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKrpYWdSUh
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他停筆了一秒。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDrlLGbcoN
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「二小姐，請專心。」312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkzelByXPb
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……312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQR9765LOUN
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什麼嘛。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJJFn5VtIB
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至少說一句「很好聽」是會怎樣。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGMJLGQ1Mb
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夢娜說，只要夠努力，就可以達成目標。312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEns0pduX7
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那是不是……只要我再努力一點，他就會注意到我呢？312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlzbVSeE8u
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