Ok so currently I am in grade 12, everything seems to be normal, fine and I have a bf who loves me the most, he is just so caring and perfect but when I look back when I was in grade 10 things were just...
It all started back in 9th grade — that’s when I first started liking him, it was love at first sight. I never told anyone, and I definitely never thought he’d like me back. It just felt like one of those quiet crushes that stay one-sided forever. But then, in 10th grade, something unexpected happened — he proposed to me. I can’t even describe how happy I was in that moment. It felt surreal. It just felt so unreal.
But even in that happiness, I remember telling him, “We shouldn’t rush into a relationship. Let’s start as friends first, get to know each other better.” I really wanted things to be meaningful, not just a label.(I DIDNT WANTED TO LOOK DESPERATE)
The first three months were beautiful. It felt like a dream. It was his birthday during that time, and I put so much love and effort into a handmade DIY gift for him. I was so excited — maybe too excited — and I hoped he’d react in a way that showed he really appreciated it. But… his reaction just didn’t match what I imagined. Still, I held on to the good moments — like how we used to go home together. I really treasured those little routines. I even gave him some handwritten letters coz I am too shy to express my feelings face to face and he told me that no one has ever wrote him something this pretty, but things changed...brutally
But after those few months, things started to change. Slowly, and then all at once. He started to feel distant. Colder. And then I found out… he liked someone else.
I don’t think I’ve ever cried like that in my life. It broke something inside me. I tried so hard to keep us together, to talk to him, to understand what went wrong. But he kept blocking me, pushing me away. Then, sometimes, just when I was starting to accept the truth, he’d come back — say sweet things, act like he cared — only to block me again later. It was like being on an emotional rollercoaster I didn’t ask to be on.
My academics suffered. I was drowning in emotions, trying to find pieces of myself that he had taken with him. And then one day, I found out he had a girlfriend. A real, official relationship with someone else and he was with her since 1-2 year.(tbh I felt bad for his gf like he was cheating on her like imagine you are with a guy since 1-2 year and he propsed someone else and claiming to be single, he literally propsed 2-3 girls while being in a relationship)
That was the moment I truly broke but what broke me even more was when I got to know that he was with me only for my body...
I gave up — not just on him, but on holding on to something that was already gone. It hurt so much, but I guess I had to go through it to understand how strong I really am.
but thanks to my current bf, he too helped me alot. He made me move on from that cheater and now I am happy then ever.
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