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    The next day, Jessy doesn't show up to school all day, nor the next day. I'm worried to death for him. Also at the end of class, I will question Amy in order to obtain his address. She gives a little smile which immediately makes me think that she is going to rush to find Chad and tell him but, honestly, I don't care. At this moment, I don't care about my reputation, all that matters is this boy who has already indelibly marked my life and for whom I worry so much. I have to struggle for a little while and make up a crazy story, but in the end, I leave the school with the coordinates in my pocket. Immediately, I went to his house. He lives in an old two story house which has retained its incredible charm, despite the renovation work it has undergone. The paint, a light yellow, was redone recently. It’s just the kind of well kept house my dad likes. This thought makes me smile. A covered terrace, where a bench and two armchairs have been installed, shelters the entrance to the house. I climb the three steps and ring the bell. I don't have to wait long before the door opens for Jessy.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYxCj7qE7W
    — I’m not in the mood to worry, he told me point blank.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6tWXlUCSI
    He looks tired, preoccupied. Despite his obvious bad mood, I'm happy to see him. These last two days without seeing him seemed like an eternity. His mother comes up behind him. I can only glimpse it briefly.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFJPQDW7NP
    — It’s for me, mom, he tells her.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkB3XJC4mIv
    Understanding that he doesn't want to talk to me in front of her, I decide to play on it and, leaning towards him, I whisper to him : 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpjKhChjKq
    — I'll stay until we've talked, and it's too bad if your mother asks me what I want.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnMYyK93GY
     His green eyes stare at me, trying to see if I'm bluffing or not, finally, he gives in.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqcBZkN1s5
    — Very well, I’m coming.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7tmGtC260
     He grabs a denim jacket before following me down the street.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknswpC9M8s
    We walk aimlessly, following the roads that pass before us in complete silence. I don't know how to start the discussion, I'm afraid of offending him, or of upsetting him if I question him too much.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkMkvYbu6R
    — So ? You wanted to talk to me, go ahead ! He says in a bad mood, as we arrive near an abandoned factory.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjW7W0IFFFx
    Intimidated, as always by his presence at my side, I take it upon myself to get started : 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUGAWwiLf4
    — You haven't come to school for the last two days...535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwy78vZ6vCc
    — Oh yes, you noticed, well done ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TQD3Jo3bW
    — Don’t be sarcastic, please. But you let me down for the presentation ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIyHclDTNN
    — Oh, and you probably want an apology ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3CgpF5w8M
    — No, I don't care about this duty.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkb5GJXBES
    I use a calm tone so as not to annoy him further.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqqv34McsX
    — Why did you come to see me ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORf3p6mSsl
    He stops walking.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSktQ85NKgG
    — I was worried about you.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYhVwAnNLe
    — Well then ! Instead, admit that you want details so you can tell your friends everything afterwards ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHStgPefAJ
    — I don't plan to tell anyone about it.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoPfTJHV4n
    He examines me for a long moment, seeming to search deep in my eyes if he can trust me.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZlOtXT2wr
    — How long have you been HIV positive ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wDSfwTn9D
    — It's been about a year now.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpSmxHrE4p
    — And how did you catch it ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnma93KVcSo
    — One evening at a friend’s party, I met a girl…535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFKF6HDP6n
    — And you slept together ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QihxTBffH
    — No, we watched cartoons ! He said, really angry.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnOJnFwc7r
    — She didn’t tell you she was HIV positive ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7kC6bx7VJ
    — She didn't know at the time... A doctor called my mother a few weeks later, Haley had taken a test which came back positive. She had informed the doctor that I was one of her partners. I had to go get tested myself and that’s how I learned that she infected me.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRg5CKC5BjL
    — Just for one night you spent together.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTMRQ51XHz
    I whisper this sentence as if to myself.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGy5PO45dr3
    — Not one night, just a short moment and a lack of condom and this is the result. A word of advice Meg : When you decide to do it with Chad, don't forget the condom otherwise you'll end up like me, a walking corpse ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomYIyivcBX
    — Jessy, stop saying that ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVb9LyB4Bz
    — For what ? It's the truth ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwJHWxgRDl
    — No, you are in good health, it doesn't even look like you have this virus so you have to be optimistic.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7nGQFhlTS
    — As if that could cure me ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVzY02UWNp
    — Yes, it can help you hold on until the doctors find a cure.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzN4HeTkdu
    I spoke more firmly than I wanted. Jessy looks at me, surprised.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawk5DdIYZd
    — You're right, you have to be positive and enjoy life, right ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26P7ArcTj2
    Suddenly his gaze changes, it becomes darker. He approaches me and takes me by the waist, holding me tightly against his body. I pull away from him immediately, not out of fear of illness, but as I would with any boy who did it this way.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaqc4jhYGR
    — Hey, weird ! You don't want to kiss me anymore ! This surprises me greatly ! Go find your fantastic and healthy boyfriend and leave me alone ! he shouts as he walks away.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxN2niLfmOj
    — Jessy, you’re wrong, that’s not it ! Come back ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Wv3D2VOwE
    My words are lost in the silence.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iFhnD6I3M
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    The next morning before classes, which start later today, and where Jessy will certainly still be conspicuous by his absence, I am sitting in a corner of the snack bar. It’s a café where all the young people from high school like to meet for a drink, listen to music and chat. The room is quite large, with its light green imitation leather benches, its silver metal tables and its fifties decoration all in pink and blue. I found Chad there, who is having fun around a pinball machine with his friends a little further away, while I read Jessy's book. In fact, this is the third time I've devoured it since he lent it to me. The story of this man who fights alone against everyone to obtain his freedom after having been condemned in advance by public opinion now takes on a whole new meaning for me. Between these lines, it is Jessy’s life that I see. I can't stop thinking about him, and it drives me crazy. I'm dating Chad, I like Chad. So why do I only think about Jessy's lips on mine ? Why am I so worried about him ? How come I miss him so much ? I have already gone several days without seeing Chad, when he went on vacation with his parents, without ever feeling this emptiness in the pit of my heart. Yet I am in love with him.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCmkyNv1yM
    Do I like Chad ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpIoY9R1Ve
    Ah, I'm going to go crazy if this continues ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7lAylLJ93
    I raise my head and look at him, he looks at me and gives me a smile that I have trouble responding to, before he turns his attention back to his friends.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrKsPpeyp1
    Why don't I feel anything when I look at it ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWaGRsMsY6v
    Putting my thoughts aside, I carefully dive back into my reading when Amy approaches me. That day, more than ever, I had no desire to talk to him. As I expected, she reported my comments to Chad and, as always, I had to justify myself. Luckily we have this talk to give, it gave me the perfect excuse.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGatHMO3hhq
    Amy lifts the cover of my book and whispers : 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9aMrjVMvz
    — Put down that book ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqP1v8xUo3
    — It’s a great book ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15HBwHSGbD
    — I will never understand how you could want to read outside of class, there are so many things535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYhJ0bbdXH
    much more exciting to do…535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5GyRAEMNW
    — Excuse me…535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ay7V3HtR2
    I get up quickly after seeing Jessy passing in the street.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsaiXniUo2
    Hurriedly, I leave the café.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghIqYaxMks
    — Jessy ! Wait for me ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWOxj0VuOb
    As usual, he hears me, but continues on his way.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLPKzJO9Ff
    — I have your book ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb84ILRThZ4
    This time, I manage to catch his attention, he stops on the sidewalk.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLfIwnooKh
    — What do you want from me ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UrpZtlZfG
    — I just wanted to give that back to you.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64ezS3jYze
    I hand him his paperback, staring at him, my heart rate increasing.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwN0MDPiUJe
    — And then, I wanted us to talk.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5rkDnEbFd
    — I think we said everything. You should go back to your boyfriend.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbDlcoDfM5
    — I don’t want to talk with Chad, but with you.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyUcoCOp3D
    — Thank you, that’s a pleasure, says a familiar voice behind me, making me jump.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SkXrYwEaU
    I quickly turn around to see my boyfriend.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhk71lY0Q0C
    — It's not what you think. But I need to talk to Jessy.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTrxMEaNz3
    — We have nothing to say to each other, he repeats.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDr7FTXx8qy
    — Glad to hear you say that ! Stop hovering over my girlfriend ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0sUoiewz6
    — Hey, I’m here, Chad ! You don't have to speak on my behalf and even less tell me who I can talk to or not ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Riz0vOP4G
    — There, I agree with you, replies Jessy.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekypg8sCmB
    — We didn't ask you anything ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXpV8GMvX0
    — Leave him alone ! It’s me who wants to talk to him ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hF2669NZE
    — Are we having a threesome now ? Chad angrily grabs my arm.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrT6KZUusuq
    He squeezes it tightly and takes me with him towards the snack bar.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLthJxCugEp
    — Let me go, I demand, trying to get out of his grip. You're ridiculous ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXa1VTk5bNF
     Chad tightens his grip further.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBSVJVyiGL
    — I just want to talk to you.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdTPUBxPQI
    — So let go of me, you’re hurting me ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnA2wWspsHr
    — Let her go ! Jessy demands, interposing.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQOdLP5wNz
    — Don't get involved ! My boyfriend shouts, finally releasing my sore arm before pushing Jessy along the wall of the establishment.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Uf66MhNQY
    — Don’t hit me, Jessy warned.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSqMb5SXdW
    — Ah, Monsieur gives more orders, says Chad angrily, putting his fist in the young man's stomach.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiYn3Qsl6Q
    In shock, Jessy doubles over, dropping his book.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsE2NWoLnk
    — Chad, stop ! I scream in the middle of the street.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNj20Uhag0
    Jessy, still hunched over, rushes at Chad and knocks him to the ground. He finds himself straddling him, trying to keep him on the ground while asking him to calm down. But you don't know Chad very well to think that he's going to let himself be controlled so easily. Soon they are rolling on the sidewalk, almost falling onto the road. Chad finds himself on top of Jessy and punches him in the stomach again. Then he stands up, waiting for Jessy to get up. When he gets back to his feet, he spreads his hands in a sign of appeasement, but Chad rushes at him again and hits him in the cheek.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Zx4Tit3nK
    — Chad ! Leave him ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPo0pljlGd
    Jessy picks up his book and walks away, but Chad comes at him again and hits him in the back. Jessy falls to his knees as Chad walks around to face him and grabs him by the collar of his T-shirt.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmz5rNr5aQZ
    No matter how much I beg him, Chad doesn't listen to me. I am about to betray my promise when, fortunately, two police officers intervene to separate them, surrounding them.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn87mLZqUal
    Jessy immediately regains his calm while Chad continues to struggle in order to continue the fight.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKzU5KsW34
    — What is happening here ? Asks the officer holding Jessy.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFTP2RUOQ3
    — This guy is hitting on my girlfriend, Chad shouts, still annoyed.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjYu2yjXA6
    — Anything ! I shout angrily. Jessy is a friend and there’s no way you’re going to forbid me from talking to him ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeMCNn8mZT
    My boyfriend stares at me in astonishment while I think I see recognition in Jessy's eyes. This has the gift of calming Chad who lets his arms fall while blowing.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSXkzXI62Q
    — Can we let go of you ? Asks the second police officer.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgtn2xDzzr
    Both boys nodded weakly.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fwKpA25B9
    — It’s not over yet, Chad says, staring at Jessy, before heading back to the snack bar.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiYkV5THLu
    — It'll be OK ? Asks the other agent. He hurt you, do you want to go to the hospital ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ571g7PBKUk
    Jessy's complexion suddenly turned pale.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5ENf5sGF6
    — No, it’s okay.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34i63Id103
    — I’ll take care of him, I intervene, moving closer to him.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7zxbq6uQZ
    With a knowing look, the two police officers walk away.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3sQwPYpKF
    — Thank you, Jessy sighs.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZC9lQpKX5
    — You seemed panicked at the idea of going to the hospital.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70koljniod
    — Yeah, I'm not a big fan of it. I've already just left my doctor's office, I'm not going to spend the rest of my day on a stretcher.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0jqcR0yOo
    I pick up his book and give it back to him.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedh6vHwfRi
    — Do you want to talk now ? I ask.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBDw96fXIm
    Jessy purses his lips.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfcItxocPZ
    — You never give up ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8q9yQYOvem
    — It depends on the subject but when it’s something important to me, no, I never give up.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKgYA5pBhJ
     Jessy seems touched by my words, he lowers his head and nods, pursing his lips.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAya0COwtiT
    Without even asking him if he plans to go to class this morning, we head towards his house.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LNmt72kAB
    — Did you like the book ? He finally asked after a long silence.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvmvUuuhFm
    — I devoured it ! I'll have to buy a copy.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaBiFACgYB
     His smile is radiant when he tells me : 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0sB7fxPz0
     — I'm glad you liked it. You're the first person I've told about this.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxgV81zZna
    I take advantage of this confidence to try to learn more.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IMwhIm8A7
    — You told me you went to the doctor, are you okay ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHvUj5uHic
    — My doctor told me that apart from being HIV positive, I am in great shape. She will do regular blood tests to monitor how the virus is progressing and has also encouraged me to join a support group of people who have the same problem as me, he tells me as he stops walking.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNy0S4dtFmm
     I meditate on his words for a few seconds, I know how important the subject is and I definitely don't want to focus on it.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0bi8ief3S
    — I think you should try going to one of these meetings. After all, what are you risking ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IvdxgZtXE
    He raises his face to the sky and observes a cloud which moves slowly, pushed by a light wind.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkSZHnUGwu
    — Maybe you're right.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0V89xQQC5l
    Satisfied with his answer, I leave him in front of his house. As I head back home, I'm torn between the pleasure of being closer to Jessy and the anger that overcomes me when I think of Chad. I know this situation has gone on for too long.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe33I9JWmdJ
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    I had barely crossed the threshold of my house when my mother told me that Chad was waiting for me in the garden.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrOsWGFLsU
    — Neither of you have been to class and Chad looks upset, she said. What's going on, Megan ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqRYt3uaZI
    — I'm sorry, mom. I should have warned you. Chad and Jessy fought before we went to high school. Chad crossed the line, Jessy is hurt, and believe me, he really didn't need this.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCCTpwQbUy
    My mother examines me carefully. I'm not going to lie, along the way I thought about how events unfolded and the more I think about it, the more my anger grows.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDxwJuHZ4D
    — And this fight happened because of how you feel about Jessy ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTLxSmmrPH
    I agree, nodding my head.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiD2d4TE1Gy
    — Now, do you know what you are doing ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFAAnSAQmO
    — Yes, even if it is painful, I can no longer hide my face.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03JuOEx2Vu
    My mother gives a little knowing smile.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6SlF7BlK4
    — GOOD. I don't like it when you skip school, but this time, I'm giving up. You will go to class this afternoon. In the meantime, go and sort this situation out. Good luck.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumZ2uOjBke
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     Chad is pacing around the yard when I open the back door of the house to join him.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCg5MU5Iah
    — Finally you're here ! Were you with him ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgi7uZ0JDN
     The tone of his voice is icy. If he thinks I'm going to let him talk to me like that, he's sorely mistaken.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRaJ05nsLW
    — Remind me, when did we get married ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlHXaZwkyY
    — Pardon ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXy044RI6nG
    — No, because the reason you're acting like an incredible asshole is because we've been married for years and you think I'm your property, right ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDmNwBM1He
    Chad puts his hand to his forehead and bursts out into mirthless laughter.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UfhNr4Cx8
    — I should have known you were going to take his side. Damn, Meg, you don't realize this guy is manipulating you to separate us ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhWSbp5yI0
    If until now I had managed to keep calm, his words made me lose all control.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSPks1lqp6
    — But you are completely delusional ! I'm not your thing, I'm free to do what I want ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwsAv2Qnx5
    — Like sleeping with him ! ? He writes to himself, clenching his fists.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvV4uPWrOZD
    — I'm not going out with him ! I scream. And I'm not going out with you anymore ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSImOqAsfj
    In shock, he takes two steps back.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOch3yYAbN
    — What ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43lWFKnjKU
    — You understood me very well. It's over Chad.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvUrxN1PNT
    — He succeeded then ? He wanted to separate us and you become his accomplice.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡen0kbgvieT
    This time it’s me who’s in shock. Where did he get such an idea ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypXAHXBMBC
    — No, but do you hear yourself ? I'm talking to you about us, not Jessy. He never even suggested that I break up with you, even after you hit him earlier.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplFE14w5G3
    — You're not going to make me believe that it's enough for you to realize that you don't love me anymore.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPIKJtxsRX
    — Since we have been together, I have asked myself a lot of questions, I admit, going to sit down on a chair in the garden furniture. We have nothing in common. I know that I annoy you when I talk to you about literature and you annoy me when I try to share a moment with you and you are so captivated by a match on TV that you don't care.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7khrmIImul
    Chad opens his mouth to respond but remains silent.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLgcgZgkeK
    — You know I’m right, I insist calmly. You and I have known each other since we were kids, we have always been friends and I think we should have stayed that way.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡos3ZRYy6fl
    He takes a deep breath as his eyes water.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbVgQjS1M1
    — So you don’t love me anymore ? he whispers.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfR0EkTA3GN
    — Yes I love you but, contrary to what I thought, I realized that I am not in love with you. I love you as a friend, not as the man of my life.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUJh4HWGMq
    — And did you realize how you felt, before or after falling in love with Jessy ? He get angry again. It’s not over Meg ! I'm sure this guy is hiding something and trust me I'll find out what it is ! You will come back to me Meg ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDOm7blfG2
    — Chad ! Chad ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZwppzsOte
    But it's too late, he's already slammed the door behind him.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1ReroF2uV
    I feel relieved to finally have been able to put into words what had bothered me since the beginning of our story, but I am also worried at the thought of Chad discovering Jessy's secret. I hope his threats are out of anger and that after he calms down he will realize their stupidity.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4F9evcnhnv
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    In the afternoon, I head back to school and smile as soon as I see Jessy arriving in the main hallway.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsKAIDIvV4
    — You’ve decided to come back, I comment.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAF5OGTQwQ
    — Yeah, I don’t want Chad to think he’s got the upper hand on me, he replies as we walk down the hall towards our class.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzcDo1wrHW
    — Good choice. But I need to talk to you.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0r1blmXTp5
    Without waiting, I pull him by his jacket away from the crowd of students and lead him into a corner near the boys' bathroom. I don't want anyone to hear our exchange.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzspGAsCATI
    — What is happening ? He asks me, frowning.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2K1abP7v5O
    — Chad was at my house when I got home.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4Spxq4PRx
    — Okay, he says slowly.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIVq5RSJ5G
    — I broke up with him, I admit abruptly.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqK2KSdL7t
    His already piercing gaze locks on mine and never lets go. I wish I could drown in it but I only have a short time before the bell rings.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHotx3kIL23
    — He is very angry with you. He thinks you made me dump him.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGfoOyaEVq
    — I have never done that ! He writes to himself, shocked.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQr0N4uPr0h
    — I know that perfectly, but I think he's looking for someone to blame for our breakup, when there's no one to blame. We're not meant for each other, that's all. Anyway, he told me you're hiding something and he's going to find out what it is. So be careful, okay ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwKuBPPQUU
    — Yeah.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTP3XZV5s1
    He leans against the wall behind him and whispers, with tears in his eyes : 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzObfXqJsDu
     — I don't want it to start again like in my old school, I couldn't stand it.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWHYkfovFg
    Seeing him abandon his armor in favor of sincerity upsets me beyond words. In these moments of fragility, I meet the real Jessy, not the one who takes a cold attitude to send me away but the sensitive boy who has suffered too much.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhssycsqqM
    — That won’t happen, I reassure him. You are not alone here, I am your friend, I will always be here no matter what happens.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IgQO68V44
    — Thanks Meg. I thought about what you told me earlier, about the support group for HIV— positive people. I called my doctor to ask for the contact details of the center.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4uL5kJlWf
    — Great, I smile. It will help you to talk with people who have the same virus as you, you will certainly be able to help each other.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlq4otgrPK6
    — I don’t really believe it, but I’m going to try to go to a meeting, he said, resuming a distant attitude. So maybe you'll let go of me a little ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4NGaXhaqK
    The bell which announces the resumption of classes interrupts our discussion.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAokDL3K7WP
    — Here, I said, handing him my notes. That way you'll be up to date on math.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bA6sBImE7
    — Thanks Megan. Sometimes it’s good to have you in my life ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIp4dXKy5bA
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    The last bell announcing the end of the day has barely sounded before a rumor invades the establishment. I'm putting my things in my locker when I hear whispers about Jessy. I turn to him who is standing a little further away in front of his locker. He lowers his head, shoulders hunched and lips pursed.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89Qg7qgVak
    Around us, the students murmur among themselves, stunned. At the time, AIDS was still a little— known disease; we were only in the early stages of medical research. There are lots of rumors about how and why this disease spreads, but the truth is that people still know very little about it. The only things we know for sure are that AIDS is scary and deadly. All eyes are fixed on Jessy, those who pass behind him move aside to make sure not to touch him.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVLVYMg98z
    A student I vaguely know passes in front of me, I intercept him to ask him what this new rumor is.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrx1fhsIBN
    — You are not aware ? Jessy Sutter, the new student, he has AIDS and what's more, he's homosexual ! He announces to me proudly. Above all, don't go near him, you never know.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIj8Wt9r3oy
    I don't have time to send him away, he's already moved away.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvRMTqeBUI
    I look at Jessy again. He raises his head, fixes me with a burning look of anger before leaving the school as quickly as possible.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9kg7prK7w
    I do not understand anything. How can everyone know ? One thing is certain, given Jessy's fury, he thinks I betrayed him.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfV9QqCmIY1
    I rush after him but when I get outside, he has already disappeared.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡax382obZCg
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    After looking for Jessy all over town for what seemed like hours, imagining him alone, depressed, I gathered up my courage and went to his house. The door opens to reveal his mother.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcyWPk1rvE
    — Hello, she greets me kindly.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtM1ZcLvMz1
    From the first glance, I feel that she is an understanding woman. Her long blond hair and green eyes identical to those of her son reflect the gentleness that I also detect in Jessy.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMADv12Fbp
    — Good morning. Is Jessy there ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGjl6bhqTP
    — No. You're Megan, right ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpckkYfwDPA
    I nod in agreement.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhKeX1Nn5z
    — Jessy told me about you.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VLEz1wWSI
    — I've been looking for him everywhere since school ended, hasn't he come back ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3okmm3pYv
    — No, I have not seen it. He must be walking somewhere now that everyone knows Jessy is infected.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9e1kAa5AJk
    I look at her, surprised that she was able to guess, she continues : 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6rzCD5l4S
    — I received a call from the school. Apparently, parents of students learned of the rumor and immediately reported it to the school administration. I am called this evening to talk about my son's state of health and to see if he can continue his education in this establishment.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMGW2bPsLD
    — My God, this is nonsense ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGejA2YbYh
    — Unfortunately that's what happens when people know Jessy has AIDS. Everywhere he goes, he is rejected. This has happened before in Allentown, and it's happening again here. Everyone is afraid of being contaminated by simple contact, even my husband can't stand living under the same roof as him.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DACX62rDn
    Mrs. Sutter shakes her head as if her thoughts could evaporate with that gesture.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMxk0PVCrQ
    — It is so unfair. I need to talk to him. Contrary to what he thinks, I did not betray him. I don't know how his secret was revealed. You don't know where he might be ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXTGa6pX6S
    — He sometimes leaves alone for hours.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQibEW93UVg
    — You are never afraid that he…535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXRlTapS99
    Mrs. Sutter looks at me as if to say, “Would that be worse than what awaits him ?”535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCyLO6HKawY
    I thank her and go home, totally dejected. Not only do all students now have to know about Jessy's condition, but even the administration is threatening not to keep him.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡML0ZuNHIkx
    When I walk through the door of my house, night begins to fall. I hear my parents talking.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5QboWarsG
    — Meg, it’s you ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5XgbdQ2zq
    — Yes Dad.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnm0F8uVgJ
    — Can you come ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQGXAu9N7N
    I walk down the hallway and into the kitchen, where my parents are sitting around the table.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMRCtSU1Ya
    — Nina told us what is being said around town about Jessy. Is it true ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4am6jKsQyo
    I nod silently.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIIU8xzXLw
    — How long have you known that ? Ask my mother.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ns6rldjch
    — Since the other evening, when he stayed to eat. He admitted it to me when I took him home.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRp4TmJLtOx
    — You could have told us about it ! My father points out.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAMj0pjuTx
    — I told him I wouldn't tell anyone. I didn't want to break my word...535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bgJNWfrWN
    — Then how…535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DTv8eewUj
    — You can believe me mom, I keep asking myself that question. I only see one answer : Chad. This afternoon, he was very upset with Jessy and promised to find his secret. However, I don't know how he found out about it.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCI1CNMHHGh
    — Is it true that Chad fought with Jessy because you wanted to talk to him ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0tXsoaGpK
    I nod.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwm4em6Bzhb
    — Chad wanted to force me into the snack bar, Jessy intervened to defend me.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnFd1Z47Jr
    My response makes my father clench his fists and he says : 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1r5cmB4IH
     — He loses nothing by knowing what I think of his way of fighting like that and the rest.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45S6CbMc2H
    — Are you aware that Mrs. Sutter has been summoned to high school ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZPYapWPcR
    In front of my parents' questioning looks, I tell them the words of Jessy's mother.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcf7jo2PS3i
    My mother makes a few phone calls and tells us : 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfQ6Dk3nae
    — The parents’ council is meeting this evening with the administration. Officially, they can't fire Jessy because he's sick, but they can send a report to the academy who will judge what to do in such a circumstance.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3oCs3RXh4
    Seeing my dismayed face, my father said to me : 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffOdqEYTEa
    — Don’t worry, darling. We will go to this meeting and we will support Ms. Sutter. It will be fine.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQuqEcJRIl
    Less convinced than my father, I go into the garden and sit on the swing. Alone with my thoughts, I realize that I have suddenly aged. Before I met Jessy, I was a carefree kid with few worries, but now I see life differently. And to think that it’s only been ten days since Chad’s party. I wanted to become an adult, I'm served ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiuk26hblP
    Jessie, where are you ? I sigh, mulling over the latest events. I don't hear Nina open the back door.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2zi0ICJ6I
    — I was wondering where you were, she says, making me jump. The parents are out, Chad is there. He wants to see you.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSwN2mAJkG
    I sigh again. After what happened this afternoon, I still don't want to talk to him. But he doesn't wait to hear my opinion before following my sister who, feeling the storm brewing in the sky as much as with my ex-boyfriend, slips away.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7OZcILb7y
    — I came to apologize for my behavior this morning. If I had known Jessy was gay, I wouldn't have been jealous of you talking to him.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHd1pQLRCeh
    I huff, exasperated. Chad looks at me, I see the incomprehension on his face.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfv4WS4Uliv
    — He is not homosexual. It was a girl who infected him ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9drwKNQKt
    — Sorry, but how could I have known ? You don't tell me anything anymore ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVRh6PJJMl
    — Sorry, but when someone tells me a secret, I do my best to keep it. Were you the one who revealed Jessy's illness to everyone ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBX6lIOKsT
    His false innocent appearance betrays him even before he confesses. I think I see a little boy having done something stupid with his hands in his pants pockets, squirming for words. Even when we were children, he behaved this way. His attitude makes my anger explode.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstAWtMY7lD
    — It's about time you grew up, Chad ! You are so immature at times ! Do you realize that now everyone knows about their state of health ? That he might be kicked out of school ? That you're ruining his life ? But no, you don’t care as long as you make him pay for my breakup ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNT9APltxKt
    Annoyed, he lowers his head. This attitude annoys me even more.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCEXw8XeuQ
    — I know, I screwed up. But if you had told me everything...535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ns8ubhXJ3
    I give him a murderous look. He's old enough to know how to behave.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnMbBkP4K2
    — Don’t ever ask me why I broke up with you again ! If you want to have an answer, look at yourself in the mirror... That is, if you can ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAaaHEmB4V
    — You don't even realize that since he arrived in town, you have completely ignored me ! Chad gets angry in turn.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Rg3QWPsEn
    — It’s nothing to do with it ! I'm the guilty one, the one who understood that we are too different. Jessy had nothing to do with our relationship ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBknEtlX9aF
    — I know, he whispers. I heard him say it this afternoon.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB24bhYXiPJ
    My eyes must be as round as saucers because Chad continues : 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyY0jHqwUHE
    — I was behind the bathroom door when you were talking. I heard your conversation, that’s how I knew.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡromrNzBEL7
    — Oh my God ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWA7z7PFY9
    With tears in my eyes, I place my hands over my mouth.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnjcxZPAIr
    — I’m sorry Meg. I didn't want things to go this far.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LdmL4dZJR
    — And you rushed to repeat it to the whole school ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5DrzZTB1i
    — I only told a few friends but it spread quickly. I really blame myself.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsBBWI71b4
    My eyes filled with tears, I whisper : 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbFsilv6od
    — You can.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPWdVZR1Pr
    — You’ll never want me again after this, will you ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlO8PHW6fAB
    I shake my head.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulxv2E0I0h
    — You disappointed me a lot, Chad. You are still my friend but I no longer trust you. I'm sorry.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcnsXfEZOk
    — You don’t have to be, it’s my fault. I went way too far. The role of the jealous boyfriend doesn't work for me, he smiles sadly. Do you want us to remain friends ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvXXahTT9D
    I nod in agreement. I know that after digesting these events, I will forgive him. I can't not have him in my life, he's been part of it for too long.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxqVxxgil4
    Chad is about to enter the house again when, turning around, he says to me : 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZo4MSHpSHc
    — By the way, if you're looking for Jessy, it seems he hangs out near the bridge over the highway.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBUHiWZi4M
    As soon as Chad leaves, I put on my black parka and head in the direction he told me. Night has now fallen, the air is heavy, the storm threatens to break out at any moment. I hurry the three kilometers, running half the way. I arrive on the bridge, out of breath, but happy to see Jessy there. It is a narrow bridge, reserved for pedestrians, it allows us to reach a corner of the forest which encircles the city. Jessy paces along the steel guardrail, watching the cars and trucks speeding by on the dual carriageway just below. His face is half lit by the streetlights placed all along the highway. He turns to me as I approach.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC83tM76ZoF
    — What are you doing here ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQvgOALJE8
    His tone is dry.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wxRwTQ2Cy
    — I've been looking for you for hours.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mXmogIS8i
    — Well, you found me. You see, I'm still alive, you can go back now.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnmjBkmOA6
    — I'm sorry for what happened. I discussed it with Chad, he was the one who spread the rumor.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5KblKKebF
    — So you came so that I could forgive him ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07J33PY4bw
    I look at him, incredulous; However, I have to admit that he is not entirely wrong. I wish we could all be friends, but I know that is a utopian vision of our friendship. However, even if she is often embarrassing for his interlocutors, I like Jessy's frankness.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxoZu0kgaS
    — I came because I'm afraid for you. It's late, come home with me.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uaRC74UEJ
    Jessy looks at me with a disillusioned look but doesn't answer. He starts walking along the railing again, moving away from me. He seems hypnotized by the vehicles passing beneath our feet.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcXBpocx2A
    — Ever since I’ve known you, you’ve spent your time moving away. Why are you running away from everyone ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJsGmUST1h
    I shout to cover the sound of a heavy truck passing below.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeRjuAfJHC
    Suddenly a lightning bolt tears through the sky. Jessy turns around angrily.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt964CFAEDd
    — I'm not running away from anyone ! It's the others who never want me ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8WjlNDPBK
    He sits on the railing which is only a few centimeters wide, passes his legs over the air, wraps them around the metal bars. A new flash of lightning illuminates the sky. Despite the heaviness of the night, I tremble and move closer to him to hold him by the back of his jacket.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsEpWQmISi
    — Jessy, please. Come back ! You're scaring me ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNG9LetkdK
    — I'm a danger to others, Meg ! I'm just on reprieve from this crap ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPFqGnUOvd
    The tone of his voice is no longer charged with anger, but full of despair. It squeezes my heart.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WQaW7XGCm
    — No ! You are not a risk to anyone ! And you are still here, alive and well ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKki33qYSqQ
    Thunder suddenly cracks, startling me. I move closer to him and tighten my grip.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGpUfuuSCM
    — Do you want to know what brought me here ? He says to me, letting go of the railing with his hands.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnIZwdfJxg
    He opens his arms wide, closes his eyes and falls forward, screaming in rage. Despite my efforts to hold him, his leather jacket slips through my fingers and I let go.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxr2PAHl85z
    — Jessy, no ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRGBA9I7C9
    I scream as loud as I can as I see him fall into the void.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrz16FN8IdN
    I put my hands to my mouth while closing my eyes, not daring to open them because I am so sure that he has thrown himself under the wheels of the vehicles passing underneath. And then I suddenly realize that I care about him much more than I wanted to admit to myself until now. Yes, he's HIV positive, angry at the whole world and he spends a lot of time telling me off and yet, without knowing why yet, I can't help but think about him every minute. Suddenly, I hear him scream again at the same time as thunder cracks near us. I slowly open my eyes to see him hanging by his legs above the void. With a quick movement, he manages to stand up, then sit down again on the railing before coming back to my side. I admire his flexibility as I breathe with relief. He rushes straight towards me angrily.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnBQ2qjNtx
    — I'm going to die, Meg, my life expectancy is so low that it's not worth living ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0JpQdxzqV
    His voice is thick with anger and despair.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN36rVdFZs7
    — No, I said, crying. You're not sick and you may never be sick, but you have to keep breathing, keep fighting this shit ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3cxAXyQBY
    — To do what ? What awaits me in this cursed life ? Everyone will start turning their backs on me again, whispering in my way, being afraid of me.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrGpjoSvSL
    Do you think that’s what it’s like to live ? 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYhse4E3wd
    He points to the highway.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGI152Vk8L
    — AIDS has already made me fall into a void, vehicles have already crushed me. And none of your prayers or hopes can save me ! he shouts.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHIzjaIuvk
    My tears increase in the face of my helplessness. Jessy is going to die, it's just a matter of time and, in this second, I am fully aware of it.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rGKUc8oYv
    — This virus is circulating inside me and nothing anyone says or does to me will make it go away ! I will have to live the little time I have left carrying this burden alone ! I can't, I can't take this anymore. Reliving what I experienced in Allentown is beyond my strength ! 535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPqZRel9Wz
    He lowers his arms, weariness written on each of his features. Cries that he has had to repress many times flood his face. I go to snuggle up against him, immediately his arms embrace me.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamtLtovkZT
    — I’m here, you’re no longer alone. I'm here Jessy, I repeat to him several times, hoping that my words penetrate his bruised heart.535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lDPmHz8oq
    Above us the storm calms down as the rain unleashes, mixing our tears with those of the sky.8964 copyright protection531ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFcnknLO3h 維尼

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