
八月二十二日,天氣晴時偶雷雨517Please respect copyright.PENANAuWOQz5rOo4
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我一直覺得大自然是很有趣又很無情的存在。517Please respect copyright.PENANAvEPNaFPPeV
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認識過好多人不管年紀;都或多或少會將自己的情緒投射到當天的天氣上,然後賦予晴、陰、雨、雷等等不同含義去反應心情、或者反過來埋怨天氣帶來不幸。517Please respect copyright.PENANAzzXZ1btOCJ
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我甚至在小學有遇過說只要下雨就會害他心情跟運氣很差;如果那時候不小心看他或跟他講話就容易被扁的高中生混混哩!超感性的,害我當時差點笑出來哈哈。517Please respect copyright.PENANA37w78I99b5
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就像現在,外頭天氣好到像是完全無視了這個家裡發生的所有事一樣晴朗。517Please respect copyright.PENANAUCTRwjU42B
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沒有在看見紙條後立刻出房間去找秋英阿姨談話,因為昨天發現她會定時過來敲兩下門;接著將做好的兩人份飯菜以及寶特瓶裝礦泉水用托盤放在門口後,我其實就不急著打破這有點像是大人常說的「冷靜期」的狀態。517Please respect copyright.PENANAlPdnj5l80f
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畢竟我活在這個家唯一的目的,就是保護好弟弟;不讓他被死亡給玷污……無論現在還是未來都一樣。517Please respect copyright.PENANABjleGbi3un
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昨天晚上弟弟去浴室洗澡,他每次進去就要洗一個多小時,我就抱著日記本還有筆靠坐在上鎖的房門邊聽著外面的動靜。517Please respect copyright.PENANAzTE3y7moPJ
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雖然房間裡沒有時鐘、手機當時也還沒辦法開機,但照這段時間長期待在房裡無聊時觀察的日出日落;加上距離阿姨送晚餐來已經過了一段時間,當時應該差不多是晚上七點……517Please respect copyright.PENANAjLQKtmSH1g
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爸爸還沒有回來。517Please respect copyright.PENANAtlDbUv5JF5
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至少到現在我寫日記的現在;二十二號晚上八點半為止都沒有。這個時間是準確的,因為突然想起之前為了考全國模擬測驗,爸爸曾送給我一支電子手錶,幸好還能運作。517Please respect copyright.PENANA2j3RmHDxwV
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即便照時間斷點來看不太可能……但我不禁想著,如果爸爸也死了要怎麼辦?517Please respect copyright.PENANAGTBjl4VbLZ
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應該說……死了又會怎麼樣嗎?517Please respect copyright.PENANA93H8WG597K
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媽媽死了。那時我死撐著親眼看到她斷氣才失去意識,雖然很意外秋英阿姨會突然動手殺死她,畢竟不管叫誰來看都會覺得她們是從大學開始就很要好的閨蜜,甚至媽媽還為了阿姨跟爸爸吵架那麼多次。517Please respect copyright.PENANAm14fr1APZ6
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誰知道會發生這種怪事?517Please respect copyright.PENANApIKJpIowHx
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本來冒險指認只是想看看她們的反應;運氣好或許還能製造內訌……至少可以把焦點從我身上移走。517Please respect copyright.PENANAa5Ppg1B1La
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當時池塘邊岸上只有媽媽一個人,對於我能「活下來」這件事……即使有會錯意的機率,但總覺得並不是她們彼此溝通過的結果。517Please respect copyright.PENANAKqbpc9fe2l
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然後一切就很突然地發生了。一般人對於這種情況會有什麼反應呢?憤怒、自責、錯愕、後悔……還是什麼?我靠在門邊整整想了一個多小時也沒有答案,只聽見秋英阿姨再次走進爸爸的書房不知道在翻找什麼,嘗試著稍微打開一點門縫,從這個視角看不見媽媽的屍體還在不在原地。517Please respect copyright.PENANAnmU0nUHybh
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阿姨那樣隨便用廚房又亂動東西,爸爸知道鐵定會生氣吧?517Please respect copyright.PENANAQJDpz4W7t1
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那要是知道阿姨把媽媽殺死的話呢?517Please respect copyright.PENANA8CTuoDt4bA
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我覺得好好奇喔!517Please respect copyright.PENANA8ONOEAqQvm
曾經聽過好幾次國中同學抱怨父母、朋友、男女朋友、討厭的人......很多人在憤怒時張口閉口似乎都會不自覺夾帶要對方死掉的詛咒,甚至死的越慘越好......可有幾個人真的能承受身邊人依照自己希望那樣死亡的重量呢?517Please respect copyright.PENANAtPE6lpADOe
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......明天就去找秋英阿姨說話吧?我還想知道更多、更多有關這個家裡的事情。517Please respect copyright.PENANAsbHUhK8iGm
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至於晚真……現在年紀太小了。517Please respect copyright.PENANAKpzZJd1nhm
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關於我,他什麼都還不需要知道。517Please respect copyright.PENANAmwK2C8ehSF