「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,876Please respect copyright.PENANAd5tNCZCFeq
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,876Please respect copyright.PENANAZI3UKdz8Zd
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,876Please respect copyright.PENANAsWKsDtdB1u
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幼小我的父母就離異,876Please respect copyright.PENANA6cRTGv963s
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,876Please respect copyright.PENANAYaZiryhqgt
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對母親的記憶還是有,876Please respect copyright.PENANAwvgee2YkSD
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記得她很常酗酒,876Please respect copyright.PENANAOoXDsoBk4h
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後來的日子,876Please respect copyright.PENANA0xWR3HSfKa
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,876Please respect copyright.PENANAly5K4yn2cU
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忙於工作的他,876Please respect copyright.PENANAssK5j8GdqW
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,876Please respect copyright.PENANAgdaduPZxwe
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到了上課時間再直接上課,876Please respect copyright.PENANAr5XgGSMLaE
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,876Please respect copyright.PENANARqtFnykCwJ
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,876Please respect copyright.PENANAI00VsECA3g
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,876Please respect copyright.PENANACYnA4qOhVu
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,876Please respect copyright.PENANAIbPql766W7
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,876Please respect copyright.PENANAv77fYwpxUW
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父親工作的地方不一定,876Please respect copyright.PENANAToPkglKgFB
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輾轉的換了三所小學,876Please respect copyright.PENANASj1d5vKhKo
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,876Please respect copyright.PENANAsBbTN7gtKj
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他開始會喜怒無常,876Please respect copyright.PENANA9YmgHxyzev
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,876Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4j0QR7NHc
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,876Please respect copyright.PENANABaTOjiW9ck
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很小我就與異性交往,876Please respect copyright.PENANA7r2ckvMknL
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,876Please respect copyright.PENANAisrUhBn3YY
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,876Please respect copyright.PENANAk16SHkPsf3
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,876Please respect copyright.PENANAMKD5j91zjG
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我會睡在工地,876Please respect copyright.PENANAucGHkQaBYb
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,876Please respect copyright.PENANAdOraBtvtQL
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,876Please respect copyright.PENANAoHdCjDzpy7
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,876Please respect copyright.PENANAAHy9l8I0im
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他開始會講貶低的話語,876Please respect copyright.PENANAzMknXPJX0n
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那些原本用來工作的用具,876Please respect copyright.PENANAg6mbw4QjV3
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,876Please respect copyright.PENANAtSkfAgOEnf
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」876Please respect copyright.PENANAB9Kh0DnzI9
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,876Please respect copyright.PENANA3nIz14miyC
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,876Please respect copyright.PENANA7umqODRQnS
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要我轉告給老師,876Please respect copyright.PENANAKslbpqpoBg
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」876Please respect copyright.PENANANWofaAJmwC
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,876Please respect copyright.PENANAdvsrfjqjgn
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,876Please respect copyright.PENANACRrAUS52Wh
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,876Please respect copyright.PENANAVIvoCoYZjF
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細細去回想每個片段,876Please respect copyright.PENANADDIQEjfRpM
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,876Please respect copyright.PENANAoYMqIpwXXw
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,876Please respect copyright.PENANARfkzvC0gxp
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,876Please respect copyright.PENANAQCsbTyCU7Q
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」876Please respect copyright.PENANAEOqjAKpdUu
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,876Please respect copyright.PENANAb8jHw3SJY9
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,876Please respect copyright.PENANAdxvpn1KB35
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,876Please respect copyright.PENANAKd02HO66E1
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,876Please respect copyright.PENANAzlucvoV6ho
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,876Please respect copyright.PENANAP0CWhmzMvH
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,876Please respect copyright.PENANAzsEKxx0mQF
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」876Please respect copyright.PENANAfItQq9gXA3
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正準備吃下第一口時,876Please respect copyright.PENANAooKLof147E
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,876Please respect copyright.PENANApKGlEigiFF
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。876Please respect copyright.PENANAXyucpXSSNj